Follow ze heart

I thought it would be more fun to share my work with the Tarot then go on about what I've been up to these days. Last night with Crowly's Thoth deck I was given this spread:

What I need right now/Goal

Keywords
determination; strength of character; courage under fire; a test of personal strength.

What not to do/obstacle
Key Words
Feeling Stuck, Ignorant, Blocks, Interference, Boundaries, Bad News, Difficulties, Fears and Attachments

What I need to do
(princess of wands)
Keywords
Overcoming fears and limiting beliefs; re-finding your purpose or vitality; revisiting your childhood dreams with a view to making them real; digging deep and taking the plunge; stepping into your limelight; being courageous and daring.

Where it takes me
Keywords
integration of polarities, unconscious becoming conscious, harmony, individuation from source

In other words to achieve strength/alignment on my path I must not let myself become stuck in my perceived limitations and boundries. I must go through my fears and limited beliefs. To this end I will shed light onto my unconscious monsters and integrate them into the heart.

I was buzzed to see the bit about revisiting your childhood dreams with a view to making them real because just the other day Jake Kotze at the blob (who's path seems to be a strange echo of my own) just wrote about the new Alice in Wonderland, a story of a...princess(?) realizing her dreams are real...follow jakes recent flows for more on this aspect of our story.

In the spirit of Tarot I told myself that the first track of a CD I pull out of a stack randomly will be important to this post:

In my dreams I'm dying all the time
When I wake its kaleidoscopic mind
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to lie
So this is goodbye
This is goodbye

Hey, Hey, Hey, Woman, it's alright.
Hey, Hey, Hey, Woman, it's alright.

Tell the truth you never wanted me

Tell me...

In my dreams I'm jealous all the time
Then I wake I'm going out of my mind
Going out of my mind

Hey, Hey, Hey, Woman, it's alright.

We are dreaming and awakening and dying all the time, we have immense feelings...jealousy rage we are losing our minds! that's the work.